The friendship that can cease has never been real

I really like that quote.  It is so true. 

If someone is your friend, they will be your friend and be there for you no.matter.what!  They won't end their friendship with you over something absolutely stupid. 

I have seen so much childish, needs-to-go-back-to-middle-school drama lately that it literally makes me sick. 

Some people really just need to grow up and act their age. 

:)

That is all.

My Dirty Little Secrets

A friend of mine did this and I thought it looked pretty fun, so I thought I'd give it a whirl also!

Here is a list of my "dirty little secrets"  ;)

**I have a major addiction to collecting postcards, souvenir fridge magnets, and foreign coins**

**I sometimes give in to Logan just so I won't have to listen to him pitch a fit**

**I have a major crush on Patrick Dempsey ;)**

**My kids cannot stand water and I don't make them drink it most of the time**

**I cry like a baby during kids movies**

**Every once in a while I look up *NSync and Backstreet Boys songs and re-live my teen years**

**The only concerts I have ever been to were *NSync and Backstreet Boys when I was a teenager** 

**I usually do a "quick clean" of the house when we have people coming over:  quick sweep of the floors, wash dishes, and go hide any extra clutter in my room LOL**

**I've never seen some pretty popular movies, like Dirty Dancing**

**I love watching reality shows and the soap General Hospital**

**My money has to be facing a certain way.  If it's not, it bothers me until I fix it**

**I would go absolutely insane without the internet and my cell phone**

**Oh, and I'm a total text-addict**

Happiness

The amount of happiness that you have depends on the amount of freedom you have in your heart.

I found this quote earlier and have been thinking about it for most of the day.  The amount of happiness you have depends on the amount of freedom you have in your heart.

Well, let me tell ya, there's not a lot of freedom in this heart, unfortunately.  There are so many things that I'm angry, bitter, upset, or whatever over.  So many things I need to let go of.  

1.  All of the bitterness, resentment, and anger I've held onto because of Eric leaving in November 2009.  That was the most pain I've ever felt in my entire life.  Plus, all of the drama that Nicole (the "other woman") brought into the situation.  

2. My still struggling marriage.  Eric and I have more bad days than good.  He has such a horrible temper and a lot of times has a "tone" when he speaks to you.  That upsets me and when I tell him he has a tone or whatnot, he freaks out and we start fighting.  During our fights he's quick to let me know that everything that is wrong with our marriage is my fault.  At that point I'm just about ready to leave.  

3. Logan.  Logan is the source of so much of my stress.  He absolutely will *NOT* listen to anything.  He hits, yells, throws fits, etc.  It's exhausting and overwhelming to deal with on some days.  I don't really know what to do to help him and to make it better.  

4. Eric's family.  Enough said.  If you know me well enough, you know our history with them. 

But anyway....

I can only be as happy as I decide to be.  And I don't want to be miserable anymore.

I've never been much of a prayer but I want to start working on that and praying more often.  I need help to deal with these issues and I think God's the only one that can.